Friday, October 16, 2009

Can't believe tomorrow is my competition!!! I'm in the thick of all the craziness that comes a day before a fitness competition. I was so busy this morning doing my last cardio before the show, putting finishing touches on my bikini and sportswear outfit, practising my speech, and of course getting everything ready for my mom to take care of zak all day today while I'm gone for tanning, registration, and drug-testing in Oshawa. So, that's where I'm heading now... I'm on a go train and thought I should really go over my speech some more in my head, but am putting that off for a bit by posting here instead :) I've been eating pretty much only protein for 2 days now as I was in an emergency situation with my body not quite lean enough for competition. I am feeling a lot tighter already and of course the tan will help in a big way for sure, so I'm sure I'll feel even better once I've got that going for me! Anyways gotta go get on with that speech now, i'll keep you posted on how the big day tomorrow goes - yay, so excited!

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Competition prep has been going terrific! My diet has been majorly strict (except for a little mess-up on the weekend). Lots of protein, moderate carbs (mostly from veggies), and a bit of healthy fats. I have cut a lot of my weight workouts out lately to fit in even more hardcore cardio to shed this fat that's left. I feel a little lost when I don't do weights consistently so that sucks (gotta love the iron!), but I'm just trying to keep in my mind that this is only temporary (my competiiton is coming up - only 10 days till the first one!) Speaking of how soon it is, it's terrifying! I'm so far from what I wanted to be for this show, but I have in my mind that I will be competing Oct. 17 no matter what so I will just get to be the best I can in the short time I have left (and learn not to leave it till so late next time). It really just hit me yesterday how close the competition is and how much stuff I have to get done (sportswear costume, speech, all the beauty stuff, practise my quarter turns and walk more, and finishing up my bikini). I'm going to try my bikini on this Friday to see how it's coming so that's my short term goal right now - try to get tighter and closer to what I should be for the competition so the fitting will make sense on Friday. So excited to see how it's coming! I'm going to officially register for both the Oct. 17 and the Nov. 7 competition TODAY. Because even though I have set it in my head that I WILL be competing no matter what in both of these, I feel this will just make it even more serious!

Yesterday I went on a bit of a shopping spree and rewarded myself for all my hard work lately. It was lots of fun... bought Zak some winter gear, bought myself some little jeans (yay!), and finally bought some (also tiny) bras (boo!) That's one of the very first places my fat leaves when I start losing weight unfortunately. I got officially measured yesterday at the bra store and found I was the smallest size the store sells! I couldn't get over that and refused to buy that size - ha ha!

We finally booked our winter getaway for November 29th!!! I cannot wait! We'll be going back to the same amazing resort we went to last time in the Dominican Rebublic (Gran Bahia Principe). We used to go away every year without fail, but because of being pregnant, then having a new baby we missed 2 years in a row now! So we really feel due for a great restful fun vacay! It will be interesting to see how it goes with Zak along with us this time. It's also terrific timing as my last competition is November 7 (or maybe 14th if I decide to do UFE at the last minute), then, of course I'm going to want to have a rockin' bikini bod for our trip so it will keep me on track! And while away I plan to stay healthy (of course I'll indulge in a bit of fun foods and drinks while away), but I don't want it to end up like a full-out binge-fest at the all-you-can-eat buffets which is easy when you're at these places! I just have to remember how bad bad foods make me feel! I realized this a lot this past weekend when I had a butter tart after eating totally clean all week... I felt disgusting and sick afterwards. I think my body was like 'what is this foreign unhealthy thing?'

I'm trying not to dwell on this, but I got a cold yesterday and am feeling so nasty today! But it's not keeping me from my workouts or clean eating! Nothing's gonna stop me. I'm thinking that I'm sweating all the impurities out of me! And I'll try to get some more sleep than I usually to to re-coup! Plus positive thinking!

HEY... If you didn't know yet, I was chosen to be a Transformation of the Week on the awesome bodybuilding.com! Check it out at http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/female-transformation-meagan-hesham.htm I'll also soon have a writer page up there! Very exciting to see as well as so exciting to get so much feedback from people who've seen it!

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Can't believe it's already October!!! Just 16 days until my first competiiton! Totally not feeling ready yet, but I'm just keeping the positivity flowing and staying clean with my diet and hardcore with my workouts! I think my diet has been a little bit too high carb (good carbs), but I need to get more extreme to get the quick results I need. Yesterday there was a little too much honey and peanut butter at the end of the day, but other than that it's been going pretty good! My weight hasn't gone down too much since the last time I wrote. I have 15 pounds to lose in 16 day at this point (almost a pound a day) seems crazy, but big goals are good for me! I do tend to work better under stress and time limits (wish I wasn't like that!) I've been working like crazy on writing more and more fitness articles so I can get them published all over and really make a name for myself in fitness. I have been so inspired to write a lot lately, but haven't had too much time as my baby is all over the place all day and I have to run after him rather than sitting at a computer! I just finished an article about eating clean on the run and not making excuses for not eating healthy and I have about six more ideas for articles that will just flow right out of me if I had a few hours to sit here at the computer. Maybe I'd better keep this post short so I can try to get onto that while Zak sleeps a bit more! Bye for now!

Friday, September 25, 2009

Well, my week is going great! I have lost 3 pounds so far through my clean eating and crazy workouts. So, I'm at 23 days to lose 17 more pounds before my first competition of the season. Went on Wednesday to get fitted for my new bikini which is exciting! As I wrote last post, I've decided not to do Figure at my first show (Oct. 17th) cause I don't think I'll be hard enough at that point for Figure. I was planning on just competing in Sports Athletic Model, but then I found the perfect evening gown for the Fitness Model Division at the Neutron show... I didn't do Fitness Model last time because you have to give a minute-long speech on your personal fitness philosophy and that freaked me out. So many of my friends and students like to point out that I talk on and on to them and in class every day and so it should be easy to give a little 60 second speech, but when it comes to formal speaking (and into a mic, and being judged on it) that freaks me out. But since I loved the gown so much, I'm going to feel the fear and do it anyways! I'd better start working on the speech now so I can feel a bit more comfortable about it!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

So, I'm very behind to be ready for my first competition of the season which is Oct. 17th. Some people think I'm crazy to think I'll be doing it even though I have about 19 pounds to lose in 24 days. But I will be doing it no matter what! I may not be able to do figure (which is sad!) as I may not be cut enough by my first comp. for figure, but will definitely do sports athletic model division! I am on a strict diet and am doing 2 grueling cardio sessions a day, plus heavy weight training! I feel great all ready being on track! I believe I can do it, so I will! I know that if I say I won't do this competition and I'll just start with a later one in November or something, I'll just put off the diet more and why do that? I'm going to get my new bikini made today which will inspire me further! Talk soon!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Change of plans... I'm not going to do the bikini competition at the end of September, but I plan to do 3 competitions through October and November now! Why the change? Well, let's not kid anyone - one main reason is I didn't pull my diet together soon enough to be ready so soon! I enjoyed eating fun things all summer long (which wasn't my plan)... I just couldn't seem to get the eating under control and I gained 15 pounds right after my last competition because of it. Now, I had planned on putting about 8 - 10 pounds back on - I didn't want to stay at my competition weight through real life - I wanted a bit more butt, boobs, and cheeks back, but I didn't plan for quite this much. A lot of people are ready with excuses for me like "well, when you go so low carb and deprive yourself for so long, of course it will come piling back on as soon as you touch normal food" and such, but if you had seen how I ate for a month straight, you'd see why I gained so much. I believe you have to be real with yourself (and hopefully with others too!) I'm not proud of it, but I ate SOOOOOOOOO much, and SOOOOOOOOO much bad stuff at that! It's very simple to me, you eat lots of bad stuff, you put on fat, you eat lots of good-for-you stuff, you get lean and feel awesome. I do think I really needed the bad to totally appreciate the good! At this point I'm sick and tired of feeling gross from eating too much sugar and white carbs every day, I'm really ready for my pre-competition clean diet - I crave it! So, I'm a little late (almost 5 weeks out from my first competition), but I'm ready to go 110% now. If I had started earlier I might not have felt that way and I think you really need to feel it in your heart to have great results. I don't like doing anything in life half-heartedly! The other reasons for backing out of the idea of doing the bikini competiiton are that I really want to BRING IT for Figure in October and November and I thought September might throw me off for the later competitions, also, I just don't get the new bikini division and don't really see myself in that way... I LOVE a nice muscular body and I'm not quite sure I'd fit in with the bikini babes! We'll see where it goes as it is a new division and no one really knows what their looking for yet!

This morning I did a good Back and Bicep weight workout and will run to and from the studio tonight (which will equal about an hour of running). I don't usually use any supplements other than multivitamins sometimes, but today I started trying out CLA as I've heard so much good stuff from friends about it. So far, it just made me feel a bit sick to my stomach when I took it before breakfast :< I'll keep you posted on what I find it does for me as I go! I'm starting to think about my figure routine for the Neutron show on Oct. 17, as well as my new bikini (which I think will be green with lots of bling of course!), and my Sports Athletic Model themewear for Neutron as I plan on competing in both Figure and Sports Athletic Model again in that competition!

I'm off to train someone from my 12-week program soon, so I'll be signing off now! I will post again tomorrow hopefully!

Hi there!
Haven't posted for a while, eh? I have been all over the place diet and training-wise over the past three weeks (post competition). I know this is fairly normal for most competitors after having been so strict leading up to the show, but I personally do not want to go down this route again! It just doesn't give you a feeling of health... and isn't health and fitness what fitness competitions should be about? I'm a very extreme person as it is and i would hate to think I'd have to stop competing because it totally played right into my personality flaw of extreme, often very unbalanced thinking (i either love you or hate you, i'm either totally into something, or totally not, or i'm either really superhealthy or binging on sweets!) Anyways, so I've now picked myself up out of my Haagen Dasz and nachos and have gotten back on track at the gym and running outside! I knew I wanted to compete at the end of October with Neutron and UFE, and those are only 11 and 12 weeks off, but i decided i wanted to compete sooner as well on Sept. 26 with CBBF to keep me on the straight and narrow! I'm going to try out the new Bikini division (which I'm still a little unsure of), but I'm not as big as most of the Figure girls and I don't want to be any bigger personally so it's hard to decide what to compete in now... I think I'm too muscular for Bikini, yet too small for Figure... hmmmm.... gosh, by the end of this year I'll have competed in every division except Bodybuilding and I'll have tried most of the associations who put on competitions here in Canada - it will make for a great article soon. Anyways, back to the balance issue (which I also want to write and article on), my goal is to live a balanced healthy life that I will be proud for my son to grow up and learn from, stay within 8 pounds of my competition weight year-round, and just look and feel great inside and out (my goal is to look like a fit bikini babe always - not just when I'm doing a competition)! I'll keep you posted on how it's all going!