Thursday, October 22, 2009

Just got a second e-mail from the promoters of the competition that went crazy last Saturday. I feel a bit more resolved because this e-mail had some meat (it wasn't just apologies with no real answers). So, they will be putting whatever results they can up (as of pre-judging) and competitors can choose to either be reimbursed their entry fees or to finish up with the evening show at an upcoming neutron competition in June and get the full results then. That will be a little crazy, but I'm going for that option! At least then I'm locked into competing for sure in June! I ordered my photos from the pro photographer from Saturday today too so those will be fun to see! I had a few cheat meals right after Saturdays competition and I'm starting to really feel that my body absolutely HATES junk now! This is awesome as it means I've really upped my healthiness! I felt absolutely ill after eating pizza and potatoe wedges Saturday night and was in a gross haze Monday morning after all my bad stuff throughout the weekend (and still feel a little bloated from it all!) So, I just need to remember how bad my old favourite foods made me feel so I don't think I should eat them! I'm getting so excited about my upcoming IDFA competition where I'll be competing in both Figure and Fitness Model divisions - yay!

Monday, October 19, 2009

Well, what an experience that competition was!!! All was normal through Friday at registration and drug-testing, then we drove out back out to Oshawa early Saturday morning to be at the historic Regent Theatre in time for the Athlete's Meeting before pre-judging. When we got there, everyone was working hard to clean the theatre up and get some heat on in the big theatre. The theatre had been closed for some time and wasn't in working condition exactly yet I guess. We hung out and finally had a bit of a meeting before being shown to some not very big, lit-up, or warm change areas. Not prime, but we made it work! After a bit of a delay the daytime pre-judging show started! There were a few categories before my first bikini/physique round so I took my time changing into my bikini (it was freezing!) My first round was Sports Athletic Bikini/Physique. There were four competitors in this category. First we each walk out and do our model T-Walk, then our quarter turns together for comparison. I felt WAY more confident with my walk and posing than I had at my first Neutron show in June as I kinda knew what to expect this time and I hope I slowed down my walk a bit this time (as that was a big point in my judge's report from last time and from my husband!) We changed into our Sports Athletic Sports Wear (mine was a neon pink and yellow 80's aerobics theme that I loved!) Again we did the T-Walk and quarter turns in these costumes. Then a quick change back into bikinis for Fitness Model category. There were six competitors in this category. The other part of the Fitness Model category (aside from bikini/physique) is the evening gown and speech part (the part I was most terrified about), but that happens only in the evening show. Soon after we had changed out of our bikinis and piled on the layers to try to warm up, the show was over. Me and my pal Gina rushed off to eat lunch at her sister's house who conveniently lives in Oshawa! It was awesome of her to have us over to thaw out and eat - we were hungry and cold! Soon we were on our way back to the theatre for the athlete's meeting before the evening show. By now my husband and baby had arrived in Oshawa to watch the evening show. It was past the time the show was supposed to start and we were still waiting in the audience for the athlete's meeting to start, something was wrong! I had taken this time to spend some time with my boys and catch up when all of a sudden there was an official announcement throughout the theatre saying we'd all have to leave the theatre because Neutron hadn't paid! The competition promoter got up on the stage and said "no, the show will go on, we won't be shut down!", etc. I thought it was all a joke at the start - it seemed so surreal! Anyways this went on and on with the promoter talking about how the venue wasn't in the proper shape for a show (no heat, dirty, etc.) but that we should stay and not be intimidated, etc., the mayor of Oshawa spoke about something or other, then the theatre shut off the power in the theatre (no lights or sound) People were still saying stuff, it was all chaos, then the theatre started trying to blast us out with loud heavy metal music (a tactic usually used for more sinister reasons like evacuateing cults, etc.) Finally all the athletes were told to meet in the lobby, once we were all there, we were told to meet at Denny's on the other side of town! We waited there for about an hour before the promoter got there, and once he got there he said dinner was on him and that he would fully reimburse everyone and make it all up to us. Really, I think they should've just finished it all off and given out the awards at Denny's or some other location if he couldn't make an agreement with the theatre. Yes, the theatre was a mess and no heat, etc. But I think the promoter just made it all worse by taking it this far and letting so many people down (competitors, audience, etc.) Maybe he could've settled his issues with the theatre after the evening show (not before). But, it is what it is. I'm happy about the way I competed in the day show, I was relieved I didn't have to do my speech for the evening show, but a little sad that my husband didn't get a chance to see me compete and that we didn't get any results. Luckily I will be competing again soon on November 7 at IDFA in Toronto and I want to bring an even better package... I have 3 weeks to refine what I've got, get tighter, leaner, and better! I can't wait! What a very crazy Saturday night I had - it really was like being in some crazy movie!

Friday, October 16, 2009

Can't believe tomorrow is my competition!!! I'm in the thick of all the craziness that comes a day before a fitness competition. I was so busy this morning doing my last cardio before the show, putting finishing touches on my bikini and sportswear outfit, practising my speech, and of course getting everything ready for my mom to take care of zak all day today while I'm gone for tanning, registration, and drug-testing in Oshawa. So, that's where I'm heading now... I'm on a go train and thought I should really go over my speech some more in my head, but am putting that off for a bit by posting here instead :) I've been eating pretty much only protein for 2 days now as I was in an emergency situation with my body not quite lean enough for competition. I am feeling a lot tighter already and of course the tan will help in a big way for sure, so I'm sure I'll feel even better once I've got that going for me! Anyways gotta go get on with that speech now, i'll keep you posted on how the big day tomorrow goes - yay, so excited!

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Competition prep has been going terrific! My diet has been majorly strict (except for a little mess-up on the weekend). Lots of protein, moderate carbs (mostly from veggies), and a bit of healthy fats. I have cut a lot of my weight workouts out lately to fit in even more hardcore cardio to shed this fat that's left. I feel a little lost when I don't do weights consistently so that sucks (gotta love the iron!), but I'm just trying to keep in my mind that this is only temporary (my competiiton is coming up - only 10 days till the first one!) Speaking of how soon it is, it's terrifying! I'm so far from what I wanted to be for this show, but I have in my mind that I will be competing Oct. 17 no matter what so I will just get to be the best I can in the short time I have left (and learn not to leave it till so late next time). It really just hit me yesterday how close the competition is and how much stuff I have to get done (sportswear costume, speech, all the beauty stuff, practise my quarter turns and walk more, and finishing up my bikini). I'm going to try my bikini on this Friday to see how it's coming so that's my short term goal right now - try to get tighter and closer to what I should be for the competition so the fitting will make sense on Friday. So excited to see how it's coming! I'm going to officially register for both the Oct. 17 and the Nov. 7 competition TODAY. Because even though I have set it in my head that I WILL be competing no matter what in both of these, I feel this will just make it even more serious!

Yesterday I went on a bit of a shopping spree and rewarded myself for all my hard work lately. It was lots of fun... bought Zak some winter gear, bought myself some little jeans (yay!), and finally bought some (also tiny) bras (boo!) That's one of the very first places my fat leaves when I start losing weight unfortunately. I got officially measured yesterday at the bra store and found I was the smallest size the store sells! I couldn't get over that and refused to buy that size - ha ha!

We finally booked our winter getaway for November 29th!!! I cannot wait! We'll be going back to the same amazing resort we went to last time in the Dominican Rebublic (Gran Bahia Principe). We used to go away every year without fail, but because of being pregnant, then having a new baby we missed 2 years in a row now! So we really feel due for a great restful fun vacay! It will be interesting to see how it goes with Zak along with us this time. It's also terrific timing as my last competition is November 7 (or maybe 14th if I decide to do UFE at the last minute), then, of course I'm going to want to have a rockin' bikini bod for our trip so it will keep me on track! And while away I plan to stay healthy (of course I'll indulge in a bit of fun foods and drinks while away), but I don't want it to end up like a full-out binge-fest at the all-you-can-eat buffets which is easy when you're at these places! I just have to remember how bad bad foods make me feel! I realized this a lot this past weekend when I had a butter tart after eating totally clean all week... I felt disgusting and sick afterwards. I think my body was like 'what is this foreign unhealthy thing?'

I'm trying not to dwell on this, but I got a cold yesterday and am feeling so nasty today! But it's not keeping me from my workouts or clean eating! Nothing's gonna stop me. I'm thinking that I'm sweating all the impurities out of me! And I'll try to get some more sleep than I usually to to re-coup! Plus positive thinking!

HEY... If you didn't know yet, I was chosen to be a Transformation of the Week on the awesome bodybuilding.com! Check it out at http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/female-transformation-meagan-hesham.htm I'll also soon have a writer page up there! Very exciting to see as well as so exciting to get so much feedback from people who've seen it!

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Can't believe it's already October!!! Just 16 days until my first competiiton! Totally not feeling ready yet, but I'm just keeping the positivity flowing and staying clean with my diet and hardcore with my workouts! I think my diet has been a little bit too high carb (good carbs), but I need to get more extreme to get the quick results I need. Yesterday there was a little too much honey and peanut butter at the end of the day, but other than that it's been going pretty good! My weight hasn't gone down too much since the last time I wrote. I have 15 pounds to lose in 16 day at this point (almost a pound a day) seems crazy, but big goals are good for me! I do tend to work better under stress and time limits (wish I wasn't like that!) I've been working like crazy on writing more and more fitness articles so I can get them published all over and really make a name for myself in fitness. I have been so inspired to write a lot lately, but haven't had too much time as my baby is all over the place all day and I have to run after him rather than sitting at a computer! I just finished an article about eating clean on the run and not making excuses for not eating healthy and I have about six more ideas for articles that will just flow right out of me if I had a few hours to sit here at the computer. Maybe I'd better keep this post short so I can try to get onto that while Zak sleeps a bit more! Bye for now!